5th round, caves and normality

So yesterday marked round 5 of the delightful chemo. And I can honestly say it doesn't get any better or easier :( no idea why I even thought it would!

Hospital went fine, I even managed to get my original chair in the window, without having to ninja someone else out of it, success me thinks! Canula had to go in my hand in the end, as my arms are bruised to bits, so I've been left with a nicely swollen left hand atm. Hopefully that'll ease up within the week. Again I left with a goody bag of drugs and injections, it honestly does feel like Christmas every time I go up there!! Although this time I've got some funky tasting syrup to have for the Hypokalaemia issues of having no potassium in me for unknown reasons! It smells like cherry, it looks like cherryade but it sure as hell doesn't taste a thing like cherryade!! Trying my best to avoid A and E this time!

Found myself back in work tonight as one the guys is off sick, so far I've done nothing apart from have a snooze on my physio couch with radiators surrounding me as I'm currently freezing. Completely had enough of feeling like this now, and I know this week is only going to get worse. I go from feeling great at the end of my third week, to within hours feeling like complete shit. Emotional, depressive and completely fatigued. When will normality resume :( right now I just want to retire to a cave with my teddy bear and onesie.

One day I hope normality resumes ️xxx