Curly goes a-running!

So Saturday was a shitty day, realising the realities of cancer. After a good cry Saturday night, waking up Sunday to face a 10km cancer research run was the last thing I wanted to do.

However, bailing from this run wasn't an option. I did it two years ago with hair, I did it last year with no hair, so i was sodding going to complete it with my curls this year! Ant again came up with me to make sure I was sensible..... haha! So I completed it, and I felt awesome after it too!! Completely different to last year when I had to dope myself up on stacks of Morphine before during and after! I still relied on a lot of painkillers, but no where near as hard as it was last year! The pain I did feel was in my hip sockets, another area they're looking deeper at through MRI's next week, as Osteonecrosis can be caused through steroid use. This a lack of blood flow to the bone, causing the bone to die basically! There's two outcomes if it is what's causing my pain, either drilling holes into the head of my femur to allow channels for blood flow, or total hip replacement. I'm hoping for neither!!

So yea, I completed the run, felt great after (minus the hip pain causing me to walk like a 100yr old arthritic lady who's been stuck on a horse for like a week!) and entered more runs 😂 two half marathons in march, leading into the marathon at the end of April! I've still got the stubborn side to me 😝

Side effects to the hormone treatments are still taking their toll.... having a hot flush during a spin class I can honestly say is not the most ideal timing in the world!! And sleep patterns where do I start?! Insomnia most nights, Maximum about 2.5hrs kip every night at the minute! And then some days where I can't even stay awake in the car!

Finally things seem to be coming together! I'm back running shit loads of classes (not sure my body completely agrees that's a good thing!), and I've got someone who doesn't give a dam about the effects the cancer has had on me already or may have in the future. Something I never thought would happen! A scarred, battered, emotionally & psychologically ruined girl with countless medical issues to now contend with, probable child-less future, can actually be happy! Plus .... I feel like it's Christmas every time I get my prescription.... what goodies shall I take today 😂 hey at least I'm still making the most of my exemption cert!!

So this week, I'm back to have my Herceptin today, the stinging bitch of a mo-fo 😭 then the bone strengthening will start as of next week (I think!) XXX