Surgery & Smurfette times ahead!

Another trip to the chemo suite for Herceptin, there was me thinking a solo drug should be a bit easier but Nope I was wrong again! Three cannula attempts and a black arm later and my drugs were in. Im still currently struggling with fingers and nails being black and unusable, but im assured one day I'll be back to normal!!

It's been a long week this week, really emotional week and being forgotten about by 'friends', Ive got to the point where the smaller the circle the better! Going through shit you realise the importance of people and how they treat you! Had some incredible support from people I never expected it from, especially hockey related and I cannot thank everyone enough for that. Can't wait to catch up with everyone in person in the coming months!

Tomorrow is surgery day! D Day number 1!! Id be lying if I said I wasn't bricking it but hopefully after tomorrow the insidious tumour will be no more! So currently nil by mouth this evening, probably the hardest task of them all seeing as I won't be eating again until 5/6 tomorrow evening! Heading in bright and early tomorrow to have wires and a blue dye put in me before being taken to theatre. The blue dye or 'smurf dye' as I know it, will highlight my nodes, so they can see which ones to take out etc. Whilst im down in theatre they'll send some nodes to pathology to see if partial or full mode clearance is necessary. And this dye can last for months so im going to be feeling blue for a while yet!!

Length of surgery depends on pathology results and length of hospital stay is all dependent on surgery! So I shall find out tomorrow afternoon what's happening! But ive got my Elmo pjs packed and a bag of haribo, so im sorted! It does feel a bit like going into the unknown, but Mr Parker knows his job and ive got to put my trust into him with this and for him to do what he feels necessary.

So im being dropped off as Fester and going to be picked up as Smurfette Fester! Roll on tomorrow I guess... ️Xxx